A Safe and Peaceful Little World
Since I Couldn't Find One I Decided to Create My Own
I’ve gotten tired of my internal voice nagging at me with stupid intrusive thoughts. My favorite (typed with sarcastic font) is my daily thought that an earthquake is getting ready to happen. For fucks sake, I live in SoCal and earthquakes do happen daily. Just not the BIG ONE we are constantly being reminded is coming.
Fuck That Noise.
Does being angst filled in a world filled with angst cancel itself out? In math a negative times a negative equals a positive. So why doesn’t all the negativity floating around right now bash into all the other negativity floating around and create a beautiful, peaceful world?
Because we live on Earth 1 not Earth 2 or Earth 3.
I’m trying to create my own safe and peaceful little world. If you follow astrology both my sun and moon are the sign of Cancer. What does that mean?
I’m very sensitive, even empathic at times
I cry like a waterfall
I need to feel safe in my (cancer the crab) shell
I am a nurturer, which is why I loved being a chef
I absorb the energy around me
Which brings me back to creating a safe and peaceful little world while surrounded by and absorbing all the chaos and pain and hurt. While also acknowledging that I am writing this from a place of privilege, I am not in a war zone, I have a roof over my head and food in my belly. Yes, I am grateful because I know things could be so much worse. Quite possibly as soon as the day after the upcoming presidential election in November.
But I digress, and come perilously close to launching into a rant about politics and misogyny and patriarchy and supremacy and all the other nasty words that end in y.
I am finding my safe and peaceful little world is a small world.
It’s sitting on my front porch in my rocking chair.
It’s sitting on my back porch in my rocking chair. (OK, it’s a set of 2 outdoor rocking chairs I got ages ago from Martha Stewart for Kmart. She did some really nice decor for them.)
It’s listening to CamdenMusique play his beautiful piano compositions. If you have not heard him or seen the joy he brings people with his playing do yourself a favor and go listen.
It’s listening to the birdsong, as they chatter away. At time its a dissonant cacophony, but still beautiful.
It’s watching the migratory birds get their nests built so they can welcome the next generation. Golden Orioles, so like a ball of sunshine as they fly. California Quail, with that cute little dangle of feathers on the males heads.
It’s watching the lizards do push ups in the sun, some without a tail letting me know my cats probably tried to catch them and play them to death. One of nature’s best defense mechanisms, I must say.
It’s my teenage daughter sharing yet another video or meme that I may or may not understand.
It’s the simple things that calm the mind, bring the joy and make the smiles appear.
That is how I am learning to find my safe and peaceful little world. All the quiet noise shuts out that annoying inner noise in my head. Nature is my meditation.
So to end my short essay on appreciating the small things and finding/making your own safe and peaceful world, I leave you with a gratuitous photo of my cats Chicutie and Taco enjoying the front porch with me.
I sincerely hope you find/make your own safe and peaceful world, so we can all work on making this entire planet a safe and peaceful world for everyone.